6Change
As this is tumblr I should start my post with some poetic symbolism that will do justice to this post haha. As the leaves change in this Autumn weather so begins my thoughts on the changes in life. So many people focus on the change in someone else and although I have found that over the last few years I have found that I myself have changed. This post has been birthed because of procrastination but oh well.
Life has changed. I have changed. The past year has been quite … … unique. I don’t even think that is the right word. My world has changed so much in the last year. My friends, career, relationships, time, even my personality. It’s been a morphing and adapting change. I’ve come to learn about the ups and downs of relationships, the surfacing strengths of friends, the let downs of expectations and the list goes on and on. I have stretched my time to accommodate work, family, socialising, catch ups, friendships and sleep here and there. At times I have completely fallen flat on my face. Other times I stop and think have wonderful my life is and how blessed I am to be in the midst of extraordinary people.
I’ve learned that people let you down and sometimes you cannot fix things but it will be okay. I’ve seen things that haven’t fully pleased me but I’ve learned to live with them. I’ve made new and wonderful friends who have changed my world. I’ve learned that people surprise you and no matter what they are still human. I’ve established that no-one but me can dictate how I feel. I’ve come to some startling facts about trust and hope.
Life is a roller coaster and I adore it. Yes we let some things go. Yes we try and accept the changes. But we also make new and very interesting friends and discover a different side to who we are.
My procrastination blog has been useful in well helping me procrastinate. Thank goodness no-one will read this.
Epiphany
Talking to a beautiful friend, I had an epiphany. I couldn’t seem to grasp why we actually broke up. In a state of confusion I pondered and expressed my thoughts aloud. I fit your “ideals” but I didn’t fit you. It’s strange the way things work out. I’m fine and dandy. I do miss our friendship a little but you don’t seem to want to salvage anything. I guess we weren’t really friends though, were we? It sounds crazy but in my gut I know you fell for this girl in the last weeks of our dying relationship and all I want to say to you is that it really is okay. I’m not mad, or hurt, or disappointed. It’s funny isn’t it? Your ex wanting you to be with the girl that she thinks you dumped her for. I’ve been rambling for a while but luckily you dont know this exists. I just want you to be happy. Not in that mushy “oh I want what’s best for him” romantic movie kind of way. But a genuine you’re-still-a-good-guy-you-deserve-a-great-girl sort of way.
Goodbye.
Dear *insert name*,
I have a crush on you. Now I don’t like you or anything crazy like that. I mean I’ve had about two real conversations with you in *insert number of years*. I just thought you should know that we will never ever date because you are *insert qualities that are not boyfriend material*. But I find you very attractive to the point where I blush profusely and turn from a university graduate to a 15year old school girl. So please continue being yourself because I will crush on you from afar. Oh, in my head we make the perfect couple *insert a sweet yet insanely crazy smile*.
Yours Sincerely *insert name*
*insert number of ‘x’ and ‘o’ depending on severity of crush*
Sometimes I forget that life is full of sunshine, smiles, crazy jokes and fits of bellyaching laughter& then I look at these girls ❤.
I’m a sucker for hot, fast cars. No shame.
(Source: fuckyeahthebetterlife, via foreverweareyoungandfree)
Must. Get. Over. Tiny. Crush.
Hahahaha to those pretty ladies who know what I mean.
